Birthday. Great Day!!

I’m 45 today. For some odd reason I remember when my dad turned 44.  Don’t ask me why I can remember that. I just have a way of remembering the most random things. I wondered where I would be when I got older.  Where would I live? What would I be doing? What goals would have been achieved? Even though I never had written anything down as to where I wanted to be when I was 45, I have to say, “I’ve done alright. But I’m not done yet.”  I’m not loaded with money. I don’t look and feel as I did when I was 20. But all in all I can say it’s been a great 45 years and I look forward to the next 50 or 60. I want to be like John McCain’s mom and be strong and able in my 90’s.

Bottom line? I’m blessed!!! The greatest wife. The greatest boys. I love my job. I love where I am right now. God has truly given me what I do not deserve.

Debo and the boys had their pictures made a few weeks ago and she made this really cool book with all the pics in it. It was the best present ever and better that any card I’ve gotting. I wanted to share some with you to show you how blessed I am. I’m showing you to say, “look how beautiful my wife is and how good lookin’ my boys are.” Their beauty and looks on the outside is no comparison to their beauty on the inside.

Prayers and attacks

I went on a walk the other day and during that time I prayed about a few things. I didn’t ask for specific answers. I only asked for wisdom and discernment. Since that time, I’ve been attacked emotionally. During the time of prayer, alot of the questions I had were answered just by bringing them before God. Taking the time to pray was the easy part. The spiritual and emotional attacks afterward was the hard part. Spiritual attacks take place only during a spiritual battle. If it’s a battle on a field, someone has to make the first move. Someone has to fire first. The soldiers can’t just stand there and look at each other. Whether you make the first move or not, what are you prepared to do after that?

For a knight this was called “to tilt” of “to withdraw.” Again, in any battle, the enemy would rather you withdraw. If you tilt, meaning that you lean into the attacks and ready to strike back, they will either withdraw or strike again.

There will always be a battle against satan as long as we’re on this earth.  That’s why some people refer to him as the “enemy.” As long as I’m growing in my relationship with God, he will try to bring separate us.

The question is. “Will I tilt?” Or “Will I withdraw?” What does withdrawing look like? It’s sitting back and doing nothing. It’s neutral. It’s not even attempting to grow in a closer relationship with God.